A true friend
of the situation…
It has been a
year for me.
Between January and April, three of the people who knew my heart died.
The friendships are irreplaceable.
I’m grieving deep losses...
I don’t have many close friends.
Oh I know and love lots of people. Many people know me. I also have many acquaintances,
but there are
only a handful of people in my “angel circle.”
Friendships have always been difficult for me to develop and to maintain. Possibly because I live a deep internal life. Personality tests have confirmed it. But I don't know really.
That’s the truth and that’s the reason I treasure the people closest to me.
I care very deeply about those people who enter my angel circle.
Now that three of them are physically gone, I find myself unsure of what to do.
These people knew my history even though one only knew me for a decade and one lived several states away for most of our 30+ year friendship.
Yet they knew me and they loved me.
They were the ones I wanted to
share my heart with,
to laugh with.
They knew me. Oh, they knew me. They knew my heart.
We didn't talk frequently, but I knew their heart beats and voices were a phone call or trip away.
When I saw their faces, I was home.
Now I move on.
How to do open the doors of my heart for others?
I’m quietly pondering.
Deep friendships are gifts from God.
Thankfully, He is my best friend.